kisses and daydreams July 5, 2009

Every time I try to forget every single part of him something unexpected tends to happen.A example of this event is when I was walking with the crowd and I think I accidentally see him so I try to follow him ,but like most stories I ended up following the wrong guy<embarassing yea right>.But I’ll tell you that is not the worst of  all scenarios on my everyday life because what  torn me down is when I have this daydreams about him sitting next to me smiling at me but it is more appropriate if I used the term nightmare instead of daydream. Alright in my dream he was kissing this girl<maybe his exgirlfriend or his current girl>it was a wild and flirty kiss and the hardest part is that they were both in front of me and aware of my presence.Tears just fall down my cheek when I wake up.

I’m still wasting my precious time thinking about this guy.How stupid is this feeling.I can’t get over him.

 

 

 

 

I don’t want give me heart to someone who’s heart was promise to someone else other than me..

 

~~bitterness

 

 

 

I wish that  dream will never happen.

 

Math drives me crazy June 4, 2009

Right from the  very beginning I know that I hate Math of all the subjects.I tried hard to like it but I guess it did not like me either.’Til now I wonder why?

My disgust to this  curriculum all started during my first grade ,when my teacher hit me when I did not answer her question in multiplication. I mean how do you expect a 5 year old kid nearly unaware of what a times is without explaining it through figures.

But my first grade was not the end of my horrifying number experience.I was in second year HS when I met my worst enemy.It is she who first give my first F.She was supposed to be an educator not a degrader.She keeps telling us that we’re idiot and idiots stay idiots forever.That’s when I decide to complain about her . She had step on the line it’s to much and I have enough of her psychotic behaviour.When I tried to resist her I end up with an F.

Ok now I learn that if you don’t wanna failed or get an F just go with the flow.Keep nodding and nodding .Well that is ridiculous.What I did was right, besides I still respect her andI did not fail any  single exam of her so it is unfair to flunk an honest student  cause  of telling  our head mater about her shameful deeds( including embarrassing us in front of the class, cursing, racism, unethical conduct and teaching method).Too bad for our batch ‘  she gives us phobia.My hands never shaking when any teacher call me to recite even if I’m not nervous.Some of my classmates experience behavior change and a lot more. 

It’s not really the subject that irritates me the most and make me hate the subject but it’s the mentors who should not suppose to teach because they are incapable to teach.

I’m so piss.